Aqil Mustaqim...

Yesterday, when picking up Aqil from KFadillah's - his mama mentioned that Aqil has turned. "Dia dah meniarap dah. Bila kita suruh dia meniarap, dia tak nak. Bila kita tak pandang, tiba tiba tengok dia dah telangkup dah... risau akak takut kalau dia lemas ke apa ke".. I was so happy with Aqil Mustaqim's development so far. God knows how happy I was when he first gained weight. All through the development, when he started smiling and started making noises of his own.

Not that Aqil is the only baby, he is my 3rd after two girls. He is indeed the first boy. God had given Aqil to myself and Zaharin to be very special to us and also to his sisters. God knows what is in hand for us all by bringing Aqil to us.

The pregnancy was not expected. Though it wasn't that tough of the first trimester, but that was the first time I experienced bleeding in pregnancy. I should say that I was pretty strong in my other earlier pregnancies, not experiencing any of the symptoms that people used to experience. It was different in carrying Aqil. He was a very very very active baby sitting in Ibu's belly. Few bleeding occasions. In fact the worse was during last Eid Mubara', that Zahrin insisted for me to go to hospital - but I refused coz I felt the baby still moving and I didn't wanna celebrate Eid in the hospital. Towards the end of the trimester, everything was ok and as I said - Aqil was a very active baby..somersaulting in the belly.. all sorts of actions. I was able to see my tummy moves abruptly at times and various shapes it formed.

During labour, contractions was beginning to get strong when the gynae came in. She checked and said she felt limbs and not head. I was brought for scanning and confirmed the baby was in the position of oblige bridge - I was sent for emergency caesarian straight away. The jitters in me made the contraction pain went away, I tell ya! Always dont have that good impression in getting into an operation theatre.. hehe.

When I was awake after the operation, we were excited in knowing it was really a boy this time. According to Zahrin, it was my wish came true... hehe though I never told him exactly of any sex preference of the baby as I said I would accept what God gives us. Though I was in pain from the operation - I was happy for the baby was good.

While my parents were there all very excited of the "new arrival", my gynae came in and congratulated us. She requested to speak to only both of us. In her professional manner she told us that she suspected that our baby is going to be very special. We had smiles on our faces, at the same time very curious about what was going to come. She continued by saying, she noticed some features on the baby's face and the single crease on both his palms - which related to Down Syndrome. We were quiet. I had a small tiny smile on my face and at that very moment, I thought to myself - God the Greatest, He knows best for what He had given me. I only pray that my baby is healthy for whatever condition he is. I looked at Zahrin. He looked calm and cool by the face. I wasn't sure what was inside him.

There.... we already have Aqil Mustaqim. As he is special in everyway that he is, he is gonna be the most special to us all... ibu, babah, Adleena and Adriana.

We all love you Aqil - Nenek, Atuk, Nya-i and Ya-i - all love you and always pray for you. May Allah brings all the wonderfulness into you and us all, my dear boy.